misplaced

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 22:08:36 GMT

hello, its been awhile. I was bored today, so i thought i'd say i looked at everyones "lj." all i read was hate and break ups. heres another hate livejournal to add to the bunch. Whoever told you life was easy, THERE A FUCKING LIAR. don't get me wrong, i didn't beleive it. It's just ithought i could get through life, and make money doing something simple. turns out i was wrong, very wrong. I met a girl at alemany, i really like her, i can't get her off my mind. As much as i try, theres no way of excaping this life of x-tacy. I found the only way to escape a drug is to cover it up with another drug. i'm taking possibilities into consideration.

i miss you guys from nobel. so if any of you read this, this includes, lab, and whoever else is out there, please post a commment, it'll mean alot and even save me. hope i talk to you soon. bye my loves.
tony -

p.s some of the lines in the first paragraph are metaphors.. is that better lol

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 23:59:46 GMT

Top 10 reasons to date a swimmer/waterpolo player.

1. They like it wet.

2. They dive right in.

3. Love going fast.

4. Are use to wearing next to nothing in front a group of people.

5. Breastroke is favorite to many.

6. Others like it on their back.

7. They are experts at putting on rubber and can do it fast.

8. They know how to push it and work under HARD conditions.

9. They are firm believers that practice will make you better and will at any time day or night.

10. Are used to doing things again and again till you can't.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 03:21:18 GMT

wow i don't think things could of gone worse today...
stumped
and
jacked!
but yesterday made up for today but that was yesterday...

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 02:11:12 GMT

continued from july 1st... this is about my dad, he was diagnosed with cancer. no this isn't a joke. i didn't wanna say anything because i was still getting over the fact my dad had cancer and that i didn't want people putting me down. im sorry i left you all out but here you go.
tony- he goes into surgery monday july 18th at 8:30 a.m. pray for him, for me, for my family.

alittle in remembrance...

i never dream't it be this way
i've lost chance for me to say
to say that i miss you
to say that i love you
will someone please tell me i'm ok
i wasnt prepared for whats to come
or life made of memories
gone so young
and now im regretting all i've done
but in your heart know that im with you all along

where ever you go i will be waiting
when ever you call i will be there
whatever it takes ill make your darkest days so bright
im in your heart tonight

i never thought that this could go
and take me away from all i know
and leave me to think im on my own
your love will take me
you were the one
who sacrficed and held me tight
and made sure im ok
and i thank you for
the love you gave to me

where ever you go i will be waiting
whenever you call i wil be there
whatever it takes ill make your darkest days so bright
and if i should fall
i know your waiting
and if is hould fall
i know your there
if you were to cry
just know i'm in your heart tonight

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 23:35:31 GMT

i never knew 16 hours of sleep could feels so good! night night

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 14:58:05 GMT

Dear God,

am i mean person? why does this have to happen to me? what have i done to upset you God? what have i done? these last couple of days have been the worst. please untake it, and guide him through. i know relize what i've been a fool too ignore. i'm sorry.

-----------tony---------------

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 07:13:21 GMT

Wow, the party was great. sorry to those of you who couldnt make it! i love you all, and i will miss you all with the all my heart!!! call me so we can all chill again soon...6489827

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 06:42:43 GMT

i may not have shown it, but i will miss you all!

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 04:01:45 GMT

I don't think I can keep up this routine!

tony-

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 07:23:41 GMT

X's party = great...
tonights party = eh...
tomorrow is ? = ahh can't wait!!

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 03:01:15 GMT

15 years of age feels different. i think.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 02:33:45 GMT

Single!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... on that note.

wow its been awhile, how do you say it... uh

"Hello Ladies."

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 22:43:34 GMT

fashion show went great!!!!

Adam's Song
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all

I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again

You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside

The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 02:14:52 GMT

updated

Sun, 22 May 2005 23:55:21 GMT

a year gone, hopefully more to come.
fights lost, some fights won.
friends gone, new ones found.
relationships broken, relationships gained.
trusted no one, trust more than one.

well i couple more days till im 15. June 15th 1990, Tony Cox was born.

imagine your in a car. yes your driving. no, no one is in there with you. your by yourself. you just got into a fight with your parents. yelling and screaming the whole 9 yards. your at the corner of lassen and wilbur. tears falling. the light goes from green to yellow to red. the blinking of the tears to clear your vision, actually disrupts your sight. you didnt see the red light. look to right, you see a black lexus. you see a young woman in her late 20's. next to her you see her 4 year old daughter or sister. blinking, hasitating, you try to push on the brake. the right wall of the car door slowly caves in. your hear skidding, of the tires. then silence rest upon you. you look to the left you see a man on his cell phone. you see the lexus on the right, the young drivers air bag is up. you cant see the driver, yet you see theres blood splatter on the the window to her left. you see theres blood dripping over the other side of the air bag. looking at the passengers seat, you see that the wind sheild has a cracked hole. you see that the daughter/sister isn't there. in the corner of your left eye, you see the man with the cell start running. you turn to the left. you see the young girl laying on the curb. her left leg is pointed to the left in an awkward position. you see blood dripping from the car to her corpse. the man with the cell phone finially comes over to you. you see his lips move. you can't hear him though. your eyes feel heavy. your arms slowly slide down the side of the steerin wheel. your right had reaches up, you feel your forhead. you touch it, your bring you fingers back, you see red, you see blood everywhere. your hand falls. the guy opens the car door. your air bag finially goes off. the man grabs your arm. the air bag hits you in the face. hitting your nose. you feel it also getting heavy. you feel dripping from it. you blow out of your mouth. blood squirts all over the air bag, and windsheild. your eyes slowly get heavier. as your eye sight grows darker, the light gets brighter. till suddenly.......

what if that was you. or someone you knew....

Tue, 17 May 2005 03:59:58 GMT

how i feel:

O no, I see,

I spun a web, it's tangled up with me,

And I lost my head,

The thought of all the stupid things I said,

O no what's this?

A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,

I turned to run,

The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

I never meant to cause you trouble,

And I never meant to do you wrong,

And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,

O no, I never meant to do you harm.

O no I see,

A spider web and it's me in the middle,

So I twist and turn,

Here I am in love in a bubble,

Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble,

I never meant to do you wrong,

And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,

Although I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,

They spun a web for me,

They spun a web for me

Sun, 08 May 2005 19:39:59 GMT

sorry im too lazy to go around to comment on all of your newly posted comment. but wait i have better news!!!!! Jesse is back!!!!! hahah mmuahahaha
summer = great! ah ha

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 21:36:00 GMT

am i just all jokes, no seriousness, i'm just all fun, with no seriousness? is that all i am to you? do i strike you as a nice or mean person? what huh?

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 18:07:24 GMT

ok i know this is a loong post but you have to read it, please and tell me what you think:

walking down the street
all in my mind,
I wonder if life is so important
if you think about it
its been the same throughout your life
living by the rules that you think is life
what if waking up is a rule and eating is
what if were suppose to die but someone changed the rules
only thing that changes would be a rare moment in life
walking down the street, dark fades in
light fades out
a curse or a burden to live such a life
where you say I am emo but emo is a word what if its not even a word
well maybe I am maybe I’m not, dido for you
I wouldn’t want to live a lie
another 50 something years the same course as now
it could end now
no one would care
darkness would cover for you, at least for now
but when light comes
will it rain, tears.
Or grin on my grave
a question UN answered
could I bare a burden to hurt you, all of you
could I bare a burden to think you didn't care
I can't live a lie and not knowing it
death is a fun fact if you think about it.
its something new,
I mean were all stuck in this life
think of this, were all living a lie
what if God had none of these rules but someone decided
to change them
he wanted us to be free but we can't because we think were doing right
we were all told what to do since day 1
what if were suppose to change it
death maybe the key
the key to open the door to change this and to live a new life
a life were everyday its a new course, yes it maybe repeating every now and then
but it'd be different

so now you walk down this path
think of this, is this really what your suppose to do, or are you doing it because its what you were told. Because it’s what you've been doing for ever and you don’t know any better or different, is everything a lie?

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 21:39:49 GMT

i feel like dancing! do you?

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:15:58 GMT

have you ever been so tired you just wanna fall on the ground and sleep? because bassically i was trying to pick a spot haha... well havn't talked to my stace today so i dono what im gonna do for right now!
ha well thats it for now bye bye...
tony-<3-stacie

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 03:56:57 GMT

right now, im at stacies interesting day if thats what you call it haha.
alirte thats it for now!

tony-
<3 ya stacie, glad your back!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 22:32:47 GMT

i can handle myself under pressure.
you can take my needle.
ill buy a new one.
try to blame everything on me.
you cant do shit.
rumors are lies.
im not expelled.
yes im still peircing.
*just ouuttta school, im a dumbshit.

^summary of today.

<3 stacie!

oh and add my new myspace, yes i've converted cuz i was bored what can i say i was home for 9 hours cuz of this incident at school so i made one. add it if you got one alright thanks
*http://www.myspace.com/13441030*

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 23:40:08 GMT

today i peirced 2 more bellys. pretty good so far and now i got customers! yay so if anyone wants something done tell me and ill see what i can do. but other than that i was scared from yesterday. and today my girlfriend left for a school camping trip!!! wtf how gay! w.e im gonna miss her. myspace = suck my chod, bitch! haha. and this weekend i have to go to my cousins house.

thats my updated journal.
post a comment!

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 22:27:38 GMT

hey,
today i peirced my friends belly button. yea and so other shit went down and i got called up for something and i thought it was for peircing my friends belly because it was a weopon or w.e and so yea i was scared. and i just got back from stacies have a good trip.